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WW.004: No Fight Left | by JJ Heller
If you don’t listen to this song and instead judge it by the title alone, you may think it is pretty bleak and depressing. What I have to say about it and the truth of the message if you listen to it, in fact, is completely opposite. It is freeing and brings peace…to me anyway!
I am writing this today, on the day it is to be posted. I almost didn’t even try to get a blog post written today. I was talking myself out of caring or having any “fight left” because I am pretty sure no one actually reads these, much less is waiting to read the next one with bated breath. I tell myself it doesn’t matter if I keep writing. I make excuses for why I could stop right now, so easily. Last month I blogged consistently for the first time in my life. I made a plan and posted twice a week for roughly the last six weeks. I am proud of that so I can stop now right? If no one is reading them and it is just another thing for me to do, I have every right to stop and pivot to a new outlet don’t I?
No, I can’t give up that easily. What I need to do is give it up to God. I know that I can never maintain consistency in anything without His help. What’s more is, I never want to have to try! We can never get it right all the time or accomplish everything we are “supposed” to on our own. We get lazy or prideful and we mess it up. I don’t know if I will blog forever but that is not for me to decide. The reason I started blogging is to put my thoughts and inspirations out into the physical world for others to connect with and become part of the journey I believe God has called me to. I do not get to call it quits now, but it is also not me that is conveying anything through this, it is Him. I need to remember that and when I want to give up, instead I need to give it up to God. He will always come through and provide a way to accomplish the things I feel too burnt out to do. What I may convince myself is worthless and no one cares about, could very well be exactly what at least one person who stumbles on this site needs to hear. That is more than worth being obedient to the “little” things always!
If you listen to the song, I hope you feel the essence of what I’ve described here and latch on to the significance of it. I don’t want to always have to over analyse or dissect the connections from song to blog topic because I want you to be able to derive the message on your own. Understanding and applying worship songs like this to life is great training for reading and understanding the messages in the bible. Music is one of the first and remains one of the easiest ways for me to relate and engage with intimate ideas of others and thus learn to “human” haha! Song writing is therapy and some artists have such profound wisdom that can only be understood by listening to the way God inspired them to set that wisdom to music. So if you didn’t listen to the song, or even if you did, listen to it again and really try to connect with what is being said. Try not to just enjoy the melody but seek to relate with the author; of the song and where they are coming from but also of life and what He is trying to teach through that God-breathed piece of inspiration.
Blessings FAM!
What is the way you learn best? Do you connect with God and wisdom through music? I believe every creative thing we do is just our attempt at mimicking the greatest creator, the creator of the universe and everything in it. Like Father, like children! We are created to create and the things we create exist to continue teaching and inspiring creativity in others. So if not music, then what? What form of art do you resonate with and how does it inspire you to create and share your story?
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MM.003: One Bite At A Time
A popular dad joke you may have heard before is, How do you eat an elephant?….One bite at a time! This seems like such a simple concept yet it is so hard for us to apply to real world situations in our lives. Why is that? Okay so lets imagine eating an elephant was actually a thing you had to do. Obviously you wouldn’t look at it and tell yourself, “Well I can’t fit it all in my mouth at once so I may as well not try!” So why is it that we look at the dreams God has put in our hearts, see how big they are, and say to ourselves that they are too big to achieve all at once so let’s not even try!?
Every God size dream is going to appear to be too huge to accomplish! That is one way of knowing it is from Him! This dream I have had for Flow Angel Media is enormous and for the longest time I had no idea where to start or how to explain it to people. (I still have trouble explaining it, that won’t change any time soon! haha) In college I discovered an enjoyment for most any form of digital artistic expression from Photoshop to 3D printing to coding and web design. I felt overwhelmed by all the directions I was being inspired to walk in career wise and in the end I settled for complacency in IT.
If you know me, you may know that this wasn’t my dream. If you have kept up with me recently though, you may be starting to see, along with me, how I have began to realize just how much God has taught me through my journey thus far. Nothing is wasted! Even though it hasn’t yet looked the way I planned for it to at first, God knew that I needed to take this slower route through some tough things in order to learn things I didn’t know I would need to know! Even though I spent years not knowing where to bite the elephant of my calling first, I didn’t stop wondering, learning, and seeking guidance. In the mean time I have grown in so many ways which has prepared me to take this next step which I will reveal to you soon…keep reading.
Another thing about elephants that I have seen people use as an illustration which I love is the fact that, an average elephant’s gestation period is 18-22 months long. That is at least twice as long as a human’s and at most almost two and a half times as long. The common illustration talks about how when we know something, like the fact that we are pregnant or that God has promised us something unbelievably awesome will happen in and through our lives, people may not believe us because they see no progress. Their unbelief does not discount the truth you know. Some times we are not called to share certain parts of our calling right away because the unbelief of others can rub off on us and cause us to lose faith in it as well.
I have been challenged in this regard a lot lately in different areas of life. I have been growing in wisdom about when and with whom I should share the glimpses of my callings, big and small, in order to protect them in their vulnerable unformed state. My fundamental flaw is overthinking and then being so sure of myself that I talk up a storm and then either lose all desire to follow through or have things crumble in front of me and make me look like the fool I was for presuming to know how God would work things out.
In light of all of that, I do not share this lightly. Some close friends and family already know what has been going on because there are some that I crave advice and prayers from and whom I trust to support me and not bash down my excitement. I feel like it is official enough now to share publicly and it may not come as a major surprise but….as of 8/8/2020, Flow Angel Media, Inc is officially registered as a nonprofit! I submitted the paperwork on that day and received the confirmation that processing has been completed just this morning! It’s finally official!! As an added display of God’s perfect timing, I ordered 50 stickers of this elephant design to have and offer as a launch special product. My vendor had an amazing deal on them but they were not supposed to make it till the 24th. However, yesterday I got confirmation that they would be delivered today and they have! I cannot ignore God’s perfect timing in all of this!
It feels like I have finally birthed this long gestated dream out into the world and now I get to nurture it and watch it grow! I am so excited for this new journey and cannot wait to see what God does through it all!
Blessings FAM!
p.s. Keep an eye out for the elephant stickers to hit my shop! I’ll have a special launch deal on them for a bit to celebrate the establishment of FAM, Inc!
What is a dream you have felt called to by God? What is holding you back from taking steps towards that dream? Do not let the unbelief of others discount your internal conviction to chase after it! God speaks directly to us and others are on their own journeys, they cannot always see the progress God is making inside of you. I pray for your wisdom to know when and to whom you should share your dreams with and for the boldness to work towards them each day regardless of external forces of encouragement or a lack there of. I hope that God brings your people around you, like He has for me, to believe with you in prayer for the realization of your calling.
