Northern Lights

Working for the weekend is such a sad way to live. I don’t know about you but I can get caught in this mentality and then once the weekend arrives I find myself wasting an entire day trying to think my way out of this repetative cycle. Having bills, a mortgage and responsibilities of a job in order to pay them can be so overwhelming and discourageing. Maybe you too feel trapped in this reality. Perhaps your circumstances are even more pressing then mine currently are with a child or whole family of your own to support. There has to be a better way.

Life is meant to be lived not sqandered away persisting someone else’s selfish business scheme and at the end of the day or pay period only having barely enough money to scrape by and even less energy to continue to find happiness in the things we once enjoyed. My dreams used to seem so possible but with each passing experience I become more sure that the world and how we’ve “made it work” is not ever going to offer me the route to get there. I am more resolved then ever to take a terrifying leap towards blazing that trail myself. I can’t be the only one who has ached for the world to operate in a more balanced way, infact I know I am not, but it seems that noone else has done a great job of leaving the trail markers behind so the rest of us can find our way.

We have to be the help we need which is such a conundrum. Because if we still need it then chances are we are still searching for what cause is out there meeting it.

I’ve always wanted to see the northern lights. I don’t know much about where to find them or when they appear but occasionally pictures will flood my social media. I used to think they only showed up in one place, antarctica but people have reported seeing them all over the place! I’m still not sure if it only happens once a year or if the timing is based on some other frequency in the heavens but whatever the measure, It is that time again and I am not in the right place to see them…again. Next time they appear I want to be positioned to see them fully. In the same way, the next time I am reminded loud and clear to evaluate my life and the way I am spending it I want to be in a place I am proud of, positioned to be the northern light guiding others towards a lifestyle that is freeing and sustainable. I am ready to move towards being the help I need and leaving trail markers for those who will come after.